Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

I am preparing to join a group of people from all over that are dedicated to making the world a better place.  My Braveheart Sisters and Brothers Rise Convention and Awards.  It is very scary for me.  First, because it has been a long time since I have traveled and I know the rules of traveling become more involved every day.  Second, I am much heavier than I have ever been which makes getting around very difficult and no matter what I put on I feel ugly.  I hope that I can take care of myself and be able to maneuver with relative ease.  I want so much to be a part of this world that is "value added", that gives encouragement and hope.  Yet at the same time the old tapes "your not smart enough, your not pretty enough, your not interesting enough, who do you think you are, hell your feet are so swollen you will have to wear socks to the red carpet event wonder if I will even be admitted"  My friends, I am sharing only the kinder old voices.  But as I think of this I am reminded of one of my favorite "Twilite Zone" episodes..."The Eye of The Beholder" In this episode people were segregated because of their differences.  That is what normally happens with me, I go off on my own.  Because of my fierce independence I am perceived as not "gimpy" enough by some and, because I do require some help from time to time I am perceived as too "gimpy" by others.  So, it feels as If I fit in nowhere.  However, when I am willing to "step up and step out" of my comfort zone, I find people that have "inner vision" and behold all with compassion and respect and understand that our differences make us strong and bind us heart to heart.  I will be bringing back photos and stories from this event and I would wish for everyone that you too find like minded people.